The fourth step of Fr. Lackie's discernment process is to examine the script of your life.
More often than not, I find myself wishing for the script of my life. If only I had directions on where to stand, what to say, and how to think and respond. There's a sense of security in knowing that someone would have already figured life out for me.
The truth is that each of us already have a script from which we live. Based on the choices we have made, the people we surround ourselves with, and our ways of thinking, we have formed a script of our life that we follow.
To help us examine our script, Fr. Lackie encourages us to reflect on the ancient Greek aphorism, "Know thyself."
Dare to ask these questions: Who am I? Who are you, God?
The answers to these questions paint a picture of the script of our life. With the awareness of who we are and who we perceive God to be, we can honestly identify when we have gone off script within ourselves, with God, or perhaps both. We are also given the opportunity to extend ourselves forgiveness.
God's script is merciful love.
In God's mercy, he invites you into an ongoing reflection of who you are in His image. He wants you to keep asking, "Who am I?" and "Who are you?"
St. Francis often prayed these words before falling asleep:
How have I learned to live? How have I learned to make decisions, form relationships, and make commitments? Who modeled these things for me? Are those models still working?
When you have the courage to examine how your daily habits relate to God, yourself and others you will grow in intimacy with the script of your life. And when you go here, you will find the fingerprints of God over every letter, direction, and cue.
Here you will find beauty, love, forgiveness, and purpose. This script belongs to you.
Look closely at the gaps, misspellings, or unexpected turns. Herein lies intention, restlessness, and healing. More so than the flawless curvature of our lives, these places reveal the depths of who we are.
Holiness asks, "Who am I becoming?"