amnesia

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I once heard it said that Adam and Eve's transgression in the Garden of Eden was rooted in forgetfulness. They disobeyed God, but beneath the sin of disobedience lay the river of forgetfulness that flows under all of our sins. We forget who we are and to whom we belong. I call it spiritual amnesia.

We are children of God, sons and daughters. We belong to the God of the universe. To the one who proclaims:

"I am the Alpha and the Omega...the one who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty."Revelation 1:8

But like Adam and Eve, I too, fall into the trap of spiritual amnesia. I forget who God has been, who he is, and who he will always be. It tends to happen in moments of temptation, fear, or despair.

How could I forget how he captured my attention as a little girl marveling at every twinkling star in the sky?
How is it possible for me to let the inexpressible feeling of encountering his tangible love for the first time escape me?
How can I forget how he rescued me from a broken heart, loneliness, or grief?

Jesus has always been faithful. He fulfills my dreams. He has aligned inexplicable circumstances and sent signs and wonders to direct my steps. His love has never wavered.

The highlight (and low light) reel of my life is proof enough. It shows his mercy and redemption covering a multitude of my sins. God fulfilled his promises to me. Every single time. When I let that sink in, it gives me a renewed wonder at the simple truth that he is my God and I am his daughter.

My spiritual director recently exhorted me to keep praying and to not give up in the relentless pursuit of the desires of my heart. He said, "Satan creeps in when we are on the verge of something good, and I believe you are on the verge of something good, so we are not giving up."

My dear friend, we are on the verge of something good. Our King is rallying for our prevail over fear and forgetfulness.

Do not give in to spiritual amnesia. Remember who Jesus has been for you, how he speaks to you, and most of all, how he loves you. He is good, and he will never forsake you.

Every moment and decision since the beginning of time influenced your very existence in this moment. You are chosen, holy, and beloved. (Colossians 3:12)

I believe Jesus is calling you into a deeper trust of who he is so that you will open your heart to who he is calling you to become.

"'This is my body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of me.'In the same way, after supper he took the cup, saying, 'This cup is the new covenant in my blood; do this, whenever you drink it, in remembrance of me.'” 1 Corinthians 11:24b-25